I'm having a little woe is me kind of day. I know this is stupid because my life is damn near perfect.
I love my son more than living, but I'm beginning to wonder when real running will be possible. Right now his sleep schedule is just so sporadic and I know my sleep is more important than my running (but less important than cookie dough). Sleep (and cookie dough) is a biological imperative and running is just very, very important.
I have been unable to crack 6 miles (I think I CAN go further, I just don't have the time) and I'm finding it frustrating when I can't run. Maybe I have unrealistic expectations. I know that any running I'm doing right now is good for me (physically and emotionally), but doing 3 miles/3 times a week just doesn't feel like enough. All I can do right now is remember the days when a 10 mile jog was an easy run I did any old Wednesday and read about other runners' mileage with a little bit of jealousy.
In other news, I took little cub to the doctor today. He's had a persistent cough and running nose (no fever) for the last couple of weeks and I just wanted to be on the safe side. Surprise! He has a cold. Oh and he now weights 17 lbs!
Here's a little swimming picture from today (I love the splashing water and the joy on his face). I know I take a ton of swimming pictures, but I've actually pulled it back a little - I only allow myself to take swimming pictures every other day.
I love my son more than living, but I'm beginning to wonder when real running will be possible. Right now his sleep schedule is just so sporadic and I know my sleep is more important than my running (but less important than cookie dough). Sleep (and cookie dough) is a biological imperative and running is just very, very important.
I have been unable to crack 6 miles (I think I CAN go further, I just don't have the time) and I'm finding it frustrating when I can't run. Maybe I have unrealistic expectations. I know that any running I'm doing right now is good for me (physically and emotionally), but doing 3 miles/3 times a week just doesn't feel like enough. All I can do right now is remember the days when a 10 mile jog was an easy run I did any old Wednesday and read about other runners' mileage with a little bit of jealousy.
In other news, I took little cub to the doctor today. He's had a persistent cough and running nose (no fever) for the last couple of weeks and I just wanted to be on the safe side. Surprise! He has a cold. Oh and he now weights 17 lbs!
Here's a little swimming picture from today (I love the splashing water and the joy on his face). I know I take a ton of swimming pictures, but I've actually pulled it back a little - I only allow myself to take swimming pictures every other day.
Yes, you will. It does get easier. You'll have hard days and occasionally hard weeks, but as they get older, running does return. Sleep will come too. I promise.
ReplyDeleteI think sometimes we read or see athletes coming back from giving birth and within a month or so, they are back to running long distances. I always think that I imagine most of those athletes are world class to begin with and have the best therapists helping them recover. You, Steph, have a family, a baby, and a business to run. I think its great that you are running at all. And, if you wonder if you will ever run again, remember I saw your face at the 22 mile mark and the determination on it, in spite of the obvious pain you were having. I think you'll run again and be more proud of it, because along with your pride, you are also taking care of a baby.
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